Finding Out...

On January 20th, our lives were forever changed....

We had gone out to dinner with some friends in town to our favorite Mexican joint. We had a great visit and great food. When we got home, we crashed on the bed to watch some TV, and I started to feel funny. I thought I was just having some acid reflux problems, and then realized I had been having those problems for a couple of weeks.

At first I didn't think much of it. And then CAL said it... "You don't think you could be pregnant, do you?" My heart stopped for a moment, and then I quickly said, "No, I doubt it." You see, we had been off birth control since the end of August, but hadn't really been "trying" that hard. There were no calculations being done...heck, I couldn't even remember the last time I had my period. The conversation went like this....
CAL: "Do you have any tests?"
Me: "Yeah, I think there is one under the sink."
CAL: "Why don't you take it?"
Me: "No, it's just going to say negative and then I'll be disappointed."
CAL: " Well, okay, but it wouldn't hurt."
Me: "Do you really think I should take one?"
CAL: "It's up to you..." (I HATE that statement, by the way!)
Me: "Well, I guess I could just take it so I wouldn't think about it..."

So, off I went. I took the test and all of a sudden, I saw two pink lines. My heart skipped a beat. "Calm down" I said to myself... I checked the instructions to make sure two lines meant pregnant. I was sure I just had it mixed up. But no, two lines meant pregnant.

Me: "CAL!! CAL!!! Oh my gosh...oh my gosh....CAL!!!"
No response. Crap, he took the dog out..... Why did he take the dog out at this critical moment?? I finally heard the door open and calmly said he might want to come back to the bedroom.

I showed him the test and asked him if it said what I thought it said.... He looked at the test, then at the box, and then said "Well, yeah, I think it does...." We hugged and then decided maybe I should get another test, just to make sure. In the meantime, CAL sits down to watch football, which put me over the edge. (Ok, maybe i overrecated a LITTLE bit....) All of a sudden I was in tears... "We just found out we're having a baby and you're watching football....sob, sob, sob....you aren't excited...more sobbing." He calmed me down and sent me on my merry way to Wal Mart where I picked up two different tests.

I took them both when I got back home....They both said positive.

That night, we laid in bed and just held onto each other and both said a prayer for the little life growing inside of me. We knew at that moment that life would never be the same again, but we also knew that we didn't want it to be the same again, either. I fell asleep dreaming of our little one, and made the dr. appointment the next morning.

Since then, life has been a whirlwind of excitement, and we just can't wait to meet Little Bit the end of September! What a blessing and a miracle....We are going to be parents. I am constantly in awe of this amazing thing happening to us. Sometimes I have to remind myself that it is real. My dream of being a mommy is coming true, and I can't imagine anyone better to share this with than my sweet CAL. I am truly blessed.